Sleepless

I see her evil green eyes looking at me everyday. She's waiting for me to care, to look back at her, so she can start another fight. I don't dare look. I don't want any trouble...more like I can't afford it. Her red hair stands out from everyone else in the room and her pale skin makes her look like a porcelain princess, a life-sized doll. I hate her. I didn't even know what hate felt like, I never realized the meaning at all. It doesn't really matter I suppose. She's moving soon enough, she can make someone else's life hell.

I don't get how many times I'm going to have to have this issue with this .... demon. I really just can't take it anymore.

Sleepless

2011-01-22T02:17:00.001-05:00

I lie awake in bed at night wondering what I'll do when I wake up. I wonder what those I love are dreaming of, if they're dreaming at all. I wonder if the people who i think are my friends actually are really my friends.

I don't really talk to some people who are my friends though... they're busy and they have lives. My entire live if go to school, go to practice, go home, go to sleep...school, practice, home, sleep... over and over again. I don't have time for friends, I have barely enough time to do my school work, and I hardly see my family.

The only time I have time is at night when I'm awake and they're asleep. That's when I tend to lose all control of myself and do things that... are considered bad. They're not too bad, not drugs, not drinking, just some self medicating.

Usually I'm listening to music, Brokencyde is tonight's pick...and that song from the CW commercials... "We Own The Night". Maybe I should sleep now.. it's almost 3am...